Mondays with Marilyn

Marilyn is my therapist.  I just started seeing her last week, on Monday.  Okay, so I blew it today.  I completely overslept and missed my appointment.  I'm bummed, because I was looking forward to this.  I think that there is something to be said about talking about your life with someone who has an unbiased opinion.  I've tried talking to someone before.  When my parents got divorced, I was 20.  I thought the right thing to do was to see a therapist.  So I went.  She told me that I should break up with my boyfriend, there were red flags.  I got pissed, never went back.  But, she was right.  You know how people say that young adults "think that they know everything".  I thought I knew everything, I thought I was in control of my life, that I knew the right answers.  I didn't know everything, and I don't know everything now.  But, what I do know is that therapy only helps when the person is ready to talk about issues, and ready to hear the response, the truth.  Because it's not always easy.  So, about a month ago, I hit a turning point and decided that I was ready to go.  Here is what it looked like, its 11 am, I get off the airplane from VEGAS (had been there for 5 days... who does that really?), picked up my car and head straight to Marilyn's.  No change of clothes, no shower.  Nice first impression.  I sit down and she asks me why I am there.  I just started laughing, like belly laughing.  And I said, a lot of reasons, do you want me to start with one or just start talking, she told me to just say everything.  I proceeded to word vomit for the next 45 minutes.  She didn't say very much and she had two pages front and back of notes.  After I had finished my story, I looked at her and said "you wanted me to tell you everything all at once, right?".  And she said..."I like your style, I like to start off the ground running".  I asked her if my life was doomed.  She looked at me and said, "your odds are against you, but thats why we are here.  You have chosen to acknowledge your past and change your future."