Just a quick note to start...

If you are someone reading this; a friend, co-worker, family member, bartender, roommate, homeless person :), or stranger who has been around for the past year of my life, you probably have a good idea of what I have been going through.  First of all, I want to say thank you.  Thank you if I haven't said it, thank you again if I have.  Thank you for listening to me, for hugging me, for wiping my tears away, for buying me a bud light.  Even if you didn't know how I was feeling, 9 times out of 10, I would put money on the fact that you did or said something that helped me get through the hour,the day, or the night.  To clarify, I'm not starting this blog in order to continue talking about the hurt and betrayal of the end of my almost six year relationship to the person I thought was the love of my life. HA- that sounds bitter, but its not.  I have a lot to say, a lot up there in the noggin, and I was feeling that the frequency of my facebook status updates were getting a little out of control :), and possibly misinterpreted.  When the relationship ended, my life changed completely.  Unfortunately, I thought that you go to college, meet a guy, fall in love, start your career, get married, and have children.  That was the story I had in my head.  I've learned a lot.  I have learned that is not my path right now, nor is it the right path for everyone.  In the process, as many know, I reverted back to my 19 year old self.  I guess thats the coping mechanism my brain chose.  So, I also want to apologize... for being different, irresponsible, careless, not myself, or distant.

My goal for this blog is to share funny stories, lessons learned, experiences encountered.  I'm not going to sit here and say that there won't be things on here that will be sad, shocking, even disturbing.  I'm not promising that there won't be things on here about derek.... ( he he I feel like I just said the F word).  Because, while I'm happy now and at peace with the direction my life is going, there is a deep rooted hurt and a part of me that still doesn't understand.  

This is for myself.  It's something different, a place for me to reflect and share.  There is no road map for life i've discovered.  Everyday is different.  So I keep putting one foot in front of the other, and I move forward.